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What is going on? My doctor has checked my thyroid. I've had ultra sounds, Xrays and CT scans, blood tests galore, but he still doesn't agree with me that it could be the beginning of menopause.

I'm 41 years old, and my body has started doing things I just can't understand. One day my husband and I were on our way to our cottage, when I started to cry and I just couldn't stop. He asked what was wrong and I started telling him that I was afraid to be far from home.

Last year a lump was discovered on the left side of my neck, which turned out to be some kind of trauma. CT scans, Xrays and biopsy showed everything was fine, so the doctors said nothing to worry about. It wasn't cancer. After all this happened I started feeling like my body was leaving me slowly. I was afraid of all the symptoms I started experiencing—hot flashes, major anxiety attacks, rapid heartbeats, and aches all over my body. One day my back hurt, next day it was something else. Headaches like I've never had before, stiff neck. Sex meant nothing: the less my husband wanted it, the better for me.

So I went to the doctor and explained how I was feeling and started to cry. He put me on an antidepressant. But i just can't figure out why I don't feel better. I have good days and then I have bad days. I have two children at home (one is 15 and the other is 5). I've always been intereseted in their lives and always done things with them, but now I have no interest and sometimes have no patience for them.

What is going on? My doctor has checked my thyroid. I've had ultra sounds, Xrays and CT scans, blood tests galore, but he still doesn't agree with me that it could be the beginning of menopause. My feelings of doom are so great, I want to bury my head in the ground and give up. I feel so helpless. I would like to know what is happening to me so I could take some steps in getting the help I need. My periods have been weird also. I have had them three times within the last 30 days, but they only last two to three days and then spotting. Sometimes the flow is light and then heavy.

I hope this helps other women out there who are having symptoms like mine. Maybe it would help all of us to know if we are just facing menopause symptoms.

Chris
lilbiker@ntl.sympatico.ca
Nov 2005

 

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